So because I want to procrastinate and stress myself out even more. I'm doing this instead of working on my paper that's due today.
General
Age?: 18
Height?: 5'9"
Weight?: 137
Lowest Weight?: 128
Highest Weight?: 160
What weight do you want to weigh?: 118
What eating disorder do you have?: anorexia nervosa with purging tendencies and chronic exercise (but I can stop any time truly, I'm a wannabe at this point)
In Depth
How many calories do you eat in a day, on average?: well this last week I've stayed under 500 calories...except for my binge.
Do you throw up your food on occasion?: when I binge
Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress?: of course, who wouldn't?
Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, ie soccer or track?: was in kung fu...quit that recently, was in ballroom dancing, but haven't had time for it...I go to the gym most days and exercise at home and at school
Has anyone ever teased you about your weight?: yes
Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long?: most of my fasts are just 1 to 3 days, but I've lasted for 6 days once
Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories?: only fiber rich products as natural laxatives
Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses?: well yeah
Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED?: nope
Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting?: no, I do care about my health to some degree and could never do that... well never say never I suppose
Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder?: I have multiple times and every time I get fat
Body Image Q's
Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not?: well...maybe I'm not fat, but I'm not thin and that's what I want to be
What part of your body would you change?: thighs, arms, stomach, butt, love handles, hips, neck, face, legs... eh, everything?
On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body?: 4
Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body?: no, I judge myself based on my actions which is fair and honest and that's why I know I'm a failure which is the absolute truth
Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed?: yes... but it's the eating disorder itself and other things in my life too
Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses?: not just them, but other women in general
Health/Food
Do you think you eat healthy enough?: well no, because I have a fucking eating disorder, but majority of what I do eat is somewhat healthy
Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs?: no
Fat grams?: no
Calories?: yes
Are you often tired/fatigued?: yes
Do you feel more energised after eating food?: sometimes...unless I binge
Do you eat meat?: I avoid it as much as possible
Do you eat your food in a certain way? ie cut it up into small pieces, etc.: yes, I cut it up into small pieces, I take small bites and chew at least 20 times before swallowing and eat very slowly, and I take a sip of my drink in between each bite
Do people tell you you look sick or famished?: that I look exhausted
Have you ever thrown up blood?: no, well maybe once...not sure
Is your heart bpm above 49?: I think it's like 54
Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating?: I get dizzy, black out, and see stars sometimes
Other Stuff
Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders?: maybe a little, but I blame it on the cruelty of others
What's your opinion of Pro-Ana?: Eh...there are different versions. I think the basic idea of having support from like-minded and related people is a good thing though in any case...but for those who are recovering, the thinspiration pro-ana people create makes things more difficult I think.
Do you have any other mental disorders? ie Bipolar, BDD, etc.: I've been diagnosed with hig anxiety disorder, and I've diagnoed myself with panic disorder, minor depression, EDNOS, depersonalization disorder, and obsessive-compulsive personality disorder (not to be confused with OCD).
What's your favourite food to eat?: My favorite ana food is fiberone cereal. My favorite binge food is double dark chocolate muffin.
Favourite drink?: bottle water
Do you often wish you didn't have an ED?: Somewhat...I wish I didn't have to to begin with and was naturally thin.
Do you want to recover?: Well once I get to my goal weight, I'll try and eat normal enough to just stay at that weight.
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