Gold Liquid

Last night, I was having trouble falling asleep. Restlessness... such a pesky little thing that comes with anorexia. Anywho, I needed my sleep and luckily I had just gotten over being ill and still had left over medicine-gold liquid.

Now this gold liquid I had decided I wouldn't take due to the adverse effects I was getting from the codeine ingredient (hallucinations). But I knew it would make me tired and help me fall asleep so I took it anyways. I actually had a very good sleep, but couldn't wake up at the appropriate hour. I also took 2 tylenol with that since my body pains and headaches always act up at night.

So this morning I woke up well-rested, but dazed and I realized... I'm out of water bottles. Shame to start a fast and then find yourself dehydrating because you forgot to buy enough water bottles. How dumb of me.

So I set off to Walmart to get groceries for me and the household. So picture this. I'm dehydrated, dazed, walking in the pounding heat of Texas having to lug two cartons of water bottles. It was difficult and I definitely felt faint once I got home. I was fixing my concoction of pink lemonade powder in one of the water bottles, till suddenly nausea hit me and the next thing I knew I was throwing up gold liquid all over my white carpet in my bathroom.

I had never thrown up from it before and deduced that it was probably because I had eaten something with it in the past. So I broke my fast... not too badly I would say. I popped 1 sugar-free butter toffee to suck on. The bag says 45cal and 1.5g fat for 5 candies. So I actually ate just 9cal which doesn't really matter cause these little sugar-free wonders all have a laxative effect. :D

So my stomach is settling now. I need to take my vitamins, but I have such bad gag reflexes that I want to be absolutely sure I'm okay first.

I'm a little worried my mom's getting suspicious from this incident now. :(

By the way, my exact weight would be 140.4 lbs, but I just round up if ounces are present.

Another thing, I don't feel as tempted to eat today. Except for that butter toffee... I cold go for another one of those, but I won't.